Day Nineteen: 11/30: Goodbye, November.

[lizfu]

I'm depressed. And I'm sick. And I'm dropping weight. I still can't eat two meals a day, and I've barely managed to fit in one. Food just doesn't interest me.

I should be more relieved. I should be better. I've had so many breakthroughs, and I'd like to think that the major decisions I made this month were mature, but my heart's still sad and doubting me. Maybe my problem is that I think with my head more than my heart. Maybe that's the lesson I should be drawing from this whole experience.

I miss how things were before.

November really sucked. Good riddance. Here's to hoping that December is better.

Comments

[firedreamer]

Considering I have thrown up stomach acid three times already and it's still not dawn, I hope your December starts off on a better note than mine has.

December can be the month you start writing new dreams? ^_^?

When I was too depressed to eat I took up cooking as a hobby...it might not work for you but it's at least something completely different.

[lizfu]

Cooking might be fun....My mom's an amazing cook (and I'm not saying this because I'm her daughter), so maybe she can give me some easy recipes.

Thank you :)

*hugs*

I hope your stomach settles down.